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Turning 27 and Getting Schooled by Life

The last time I blogged, which was one day before my birthday, I was in a pretty melancholic mood. Things did turn around for the better, as expected, but at that time, I just didn’t have the energy or the motivation to feel upbeat. All I wanted to do was accept that I was being miserable because nothing was going my way.

But as I said, things did turn up for the better. I’m feeling a lot happier right now despite things not being 100% awesome. My smile is back.

Job and I eventually made up — he broke the ice and sent me a message first, but I admit I would’ve sent him the first message if he didn’t already. Knowing him, though, I know hindi niya ako kayang tiisin charot. He also doesn’t have any choice because it’s my birthday, just kidding 😛 In my defense, I really didn’t do anything wrong and was unfairly accused.

My best friend George and I also made up. We didn’t really fight but like some of you pointed out, I was really nagtatampo because of our cancelled birthday date. I wasn’t really mad but was just feeling frustrated, and now I’m totally over it.

Things are finally going my way… NOT!

It was my birthday yesterday, and I had a simple celebration. Why is it that the older you get, the less grand your birthday needs to be? Or is it just me? I just made cheesecake, bought some food, and celebrated at home and at the hotel. You see, early last year, I chanced upon a promo for Go Hotels Davao, which was not yet open at that time. They had an P88/night promo for their opening (which is this year), and I quickly availed. Nothing to lose!

I’m glad to report that my stay at the hotel is uneventful so far (except for the fact that the hotel internet is down right now).

So what is not going my way?

1. The bank fiasco

Guess who’s celebrating her birthday penniless? Me! Imagine my shock, waking up on my birthday, and finding out that BPI has basically shut down operations. My salary is in my BPI account and I haven’t had time to withdraw it. On top of that, I haven’t paid the bills yet and my Sun Life VUL. Gaaah BPI!

(I was able to pay my Sun Life VUL earlier using some of the savings I have with me. Whew.)

Lesson:

Always be ready and always have a backup plan.

2. When the tables are turned

Also, I have another date with another friend, Yankee, this weekend. And due to some unforeseen events, it needs to be cancelled, too. This time, it’s me who needs to cancel! Oh, the irony!

This was a really humbling experience for me. When it was me who had to experience getting “left at the altar” (exagg), I felt very disappointed and hurt. I did not talk to my best friend for a day because of that. However, now that it was my turn to cancel a date which I knew Yankee really looked forward to (and needed!), she felt hurt and sad but she forgave me right away. She also needed to move appointments to accommodate me, but she didn’t blame me for it. I wish I did the same.

Lesson:

Always forgive. 

3. Saying goodbye to a friend

And on a more serious note, I found out that one of my dearest friends from my office-girl days, Kristine, passed away earlier today. Just a day after my birthday. We were almost the same age, so to say I was shocked is a sore understatement. I knew she was ill, but I thought she was coping well. I never imagined that she would die so young. 🙁

I always think of her from time to time because I admire her strength. She had a chronic illness which attacked her internal organs, and she had to miss work regularly to get long treatments at the hospital. But not once did I hear her complain. In fact, she’s a very lovely, brave, caring girl who didn’t want special treatment just because of her condition. In fact, only a few of us knew about her illness.

Kristine is wearing bold yellow stripes, me on her left

There was a time when I randomly sent her a message because I just happened to think of her. Actually, I read an article about her illness, which made me admire her even more. The last time we chatted was when I was in Manila. We weren’t able to meet up because I didn’t know she was in BGC when we went to BGC, so we just ended up chatting. How I wish we were able to meet for the last time.

Lesson:

Do not boast about tomorrow, for you do not know what a day may bring.

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It’s Okay to Not Be Okay Sometimes

I’m your poster cheerful girl. I pride myself on always looking at the bright side of any situation. I have a permanent laugh line embedded into my cheeks.

Of course there are not-so-happy moments, like health scares and relationship conflicts, financial troubles and work-related stress, but I don’t really like dwelling on them. I get affected by them easily, but just as quickly as I get affected, I like moving on right away. I tend to dismiss them and just focus on the positive. Always focusing on the positive is a good thing, I was told. After all, we don’t like feeling sad — at least, don’t! I like feeling bright and happy and healthy and sunshiny.

Well, most of the time.

This week is an anomaly. Ironically, it’s my birth-week, too, but somehow, everything is just going wrong. Not really everything, but you know what I mean. It sounds terribly shallow because I know I have it a lot better than so many people in the planet. But there’s just something so miserable about a supposedly happy week gone awry.

First, I missed my own birthday outing. My family and our neighbours and I were supposed to go out of town, but it got cancelled because of the Martial Law. So they decided to go somewhere nearer instead, just so we could celebrate my and one of our neighbours’ late husband’s birthdays. Unfortunately, we couldn’t decide on a date. They wanted to have it this Saturday, 10th, but I vetoed because I already had a prior commitment with my friends on that day.

So they moved it to last Sunday, 4th. It was okay for me, but another date popped up, that with my fraternity/ sorority brods and sis (yes, just one lol). I prioritised the latter because it’s been 7+ years since I last saw them. In short, I had to miss my own birthday outing lol. I don’t regret it, however, because I had so much fun with my brods and sis. During that day, I realised just how much I missed them. Then again, it would have been doubly better if I was able to attend both,

Second, Job and I haven’t been speaking for *counts fingers* three days now, going on our fourth day tomorrow. I don’t want to give details about our fight, because our fights — if you could even call them that — are usually petty, but not this one. To make the long story short, I told him I’m not talking to him because I need time to process the issue. After a couple of days of sending me messages and not receiving a response, he gave up and now he’s the one not talking to me. LDR is hard, people.

Third, my friends cancelled out on me for our date on Friday-Saturday, the exact reason why I requested to re-schedule our outing (see item 1). In short, I missed out on my birthday celebration with my family and neighbours, for absolutely no reason at all… I know it’s not their fault, but I can’t help but feel bad because it’s just so so frustrating. Also, I admit, it stings a bit to be the one who has to adjust, especially when it’s my own birthday celebration.

On top of that, the cheesecake I was just making earlier is not the right consistency. *gives up*

Like I said, usually, I would choose to not dwell the bad things and focus on the bright side instead. But this time, I decided to just admit that I am sad, that I am not okay. There’s no use trying to feign positivity if it’s not even remotely genuine. I know things will turn out for the better soon, but currently, it’s my birthday week and it’s not looking good. And yeah, maybe that’s fine. I will still look out for the blessings and reasons to be grateful because I know there are a lot, but right now, I just don’t feel 100% happy… and I think it’s okay.

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The Messy Life Lately: Good Sign, Ingrid, and Lines to Riyadh

I apologise for not writing! Life has been soooo busy lately. I’ll assume you’re the tiniest bit interested in what’s going on in my life so I’ll let you know. Lol you have no choice. Anyway, let’s start with the not-so-good news…

Papa’s Hospitalisation

Papa got hospitalised again. He slipped and fell in the bathroom when he went in to pee dawn of Tuesday morning. We wanted to take him to the hospital right there and then but he insisted he was fine (save for the big-as-an-egg lump on his head) and doesn’t need to be checked. Because my dad has a looong history of being stubborn, we decided to wait.

We did things normally over the past weekend. The little boy even got a second haircut from Cuts

We did things normally over the past weekend. The little boy even got a second haircut from Fun Cuts Just 4 Tots (same shirt and I didn’t even notice haha).

We figured since he’s going to undertake another round of dialysis in a day anyway, the doctor could maybe see if anything was wrong. He went on to have his dialysis without any problem.

But by Friday, he was asking to be taken to the doctor because he’s been having persistent headaches and was feeling dizzy all the time. My mum took him to the hospital for a checkup, but the doctor recommended him to undergo a CT scan because it is possible that he had a mild stroke (again) when he fell. So he had to be confined.

I won’t anymore go into details (since it’s been a pretty uneventful hospital stay, thank God), but he got discharged yesterday afternoon and the results show that he did have a mild stroke. Thank God he did not suffer any big repercussion aside from the constant dizziness. It’s almost like he didn’t have one, but we all need to be really careful next time.

Me, the Student Driver

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Throwback to this post I wrote more than a month ago. One of the goals I wanted to accomplish before the year ends is to learn how to drive, so I enrolled myself in driving lessons (didn’t really trust myself with anyone short of a professional teacher – I’m afraid their patience would wear thin with me) in Good Sign driving school last month. I basically know how to drive now but I still need to practice more!

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Baby Shower Slash Slumber Party With Best Friends

I know it’s already Thursday, but how was your weekend? I need to ask you that because last weekend, I had a blast celebrating friendship!

I celebrated my birthday early this month, and because of our hectic schedules, I never got to celebrate it with my girlfriends. So we planned to stay overnight in a hotel, just a night of fun and bonding. But life happened and it got postponed and postponed until my birthday was already too far away lol. So instead of my birthday, we just decided to organise a baby shower for our dear friend who will be giving birth next month. 😀

Also, instead of a hotel, I decided to book us in a condominium unit. It’s a lot less expensive than a hotel and I figured we would need a bigger space to host a party!

My preggy friend, JM, knew of course that we would be staying overnight, but all she expected was a slumber party and nothing more. My conniving friends, Hazel and George, and I kept everything a secret. But it was not the original plan. We (actually Hazel) only thought of it a couple of days before the day! We only had a few days to plan and we weren’t able to visit the condo unit in advance, so we were planning blindly. And when Saturday came, we only had a couple of hours to whip up a bash-ready place.

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