Why Joyful Mess
I’m a messy person. I may have a bit of an OCD, but I am no grace under pressure, I don’t have the gift to “whip things into shape,” unless you’re talking about something virtual, and I am no Martha Stewart. Even my bun is a mess.
But having a type-A personality made me hate this aspect of myself. I want everything to be perfect and in order. Two things made me realise that the mess will always be part of life – of my life. I first realised that when I became a Christian and made the decision to make Jesus the centrepiece of my life.
However, because I was (still am) working, I slipped into my old neat-freak, perfectionist ways. Then I was reminded about it when I became a mother.
Have you noticed that we are not born with the instinct to clean up but rather the instict to make a mess? To dig, throw, discover?
There is truly nothing wrong with order. The problem is the obsession with order. It becomes a problem when you refuse to step out of your comfort zone, when you stop living your life to avoid making a mess. So instead of always telling my son, Yuri, to not make so much clutter, I have decided to welcome it as part of his young life. He will never learn about anything if the books stay in the shelves and the toys in the closet.
And instead of berating myself when I mess up, I thank heavens that I am one messy, messed up person because it means I need God’s grace to give order to my cluttered life. I thank God that I need to depend on him because in my weakness, he is strong. I am learning that there is joy in the mess.
Now I welcome and embrace the clutter and hope to document my messy life here.
What about my old blog
Perhaps a lot of you know that I used to blog in davaomommy.com. It’s still up and running now, but I have felt the need to “rebrand” and start anew since last year. The reason is that I felt the blog name itself was too cold and sterile and, honestly, didn’t evoke any emotion.
I wanted a more personal blog, one that sounds more introspective than informative.
I chose to start all over again. Instead of just migrating my entire blog to a new domain name, I decided to let it live for two reasons. First, Davao Mommy was the product of more than 2 years of hard work. I couldn’t just remove it from the blogosphere, so I would let it run until its natural death.
Second, it’s just too taxing and frustrating to migrate a blog, fix pictures, change tags and categories to reflect the new blog’s etcetera etcetera. I couldn’t be bothered.
I hope you accompany me on this new adventure!
Beginning again is a big deal for me. I have backed out several times because I wasn’t sure the time and effort would be worth it. All the work I’ve done on my previous blog will now go to waste (hopefully not). All the connections I’ve made, I may or may not take with me to this new home.
But I’ve never felt as confident as I do now. I feel like I’ve made the right decision: both to make a new home and to start from ground up.
This may be worth it after all.