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Adulting Tuesday!

Hey guys!

Yesterday I took a leave from work to do mummy duties AKA:

  1. Take Yuri to his pedia
  2. Take Yuri to our family dentist
  3. Take Yuri to Eye Level in Bajada, Davao for his diagnostic test
Selfie of an adult (Because a caption that reads "adult selfie" would mean another thing)

Selfie of an adult (Because a caption that reads “adult selfie” would mean another thing)

Well, we spent the entire morning downtown but only number 3 was a success (relatively). Here’s why.

I did not set appointments.

I have an A-type personality so I almost always never leave the house unless a sure appointment has been set. However, when I lost my phone a few months back, I also lost all of my contact numbers, which include my doctors’ contact numbers. The phone numbers I saw from the internet were also outdated. So we decided to wing it. Continue Reading

My Christian Walk Personal

His Mercies Are New Every Morning!

Hey guys, I’m back! *furiously waves*

I’m putting an end to my hiatus (I’m sure you didn’t even notice lelz!) because my number of overdue drafts is growing higher and higher. It’s stressing me out haha.

And regarding that struggle that I am going through? It’s not officially “over” yet. We’re still taking tests and waiting for results — I’m sure you already have a vague idea of what this struggle is about but I’m really not keen on writing a post about it. But I figured, I cannot mope around forever. That only means I am not trusting God to do, well, his thing! We’re not quitting and we haven’t stopped praying. His will be done. My help comes from the Lord, who made Heaven and Earth!

ANYWAY!

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Personal

When Life Hits You Hard

I’m taking another ~indefinite~ blogging hiatus.

Was it just over a month ago when I declared a hiatus because I lost my phone? It seems like an entire lifetime away — times were simpler a month ago haha.

Now I’m going through another test (or challenge, which is what my partner likes to call it), and to be completely honest with you, it’s really weighing me down. Believe me — I am trying my best to surrender this hardship to God, and I’ve cried out to him a number of times — but the weight is still there.

I’d like to think of myself as a strong person, a strong Christian, but at this moment, I am struggling to even write this blog post down.

I cannot tell you the specifics of my situation, but what I can tell you is this: sometimes, life hits you — hard — out of nowhere. And come out of nowhere it did. I didn’t expect this at all. The possibility of it happening didn’t even occur to me. I know this test is teaching me a lesson, but I — we — just want to get out of it, unscathed as much as possible.

I’m trying my very best to distract myself while at work (which is not a difficult thing to do because it’s been a busy couple of days) but it’s a different story when my 8-hour work day is over.

But I’ll spare you the details. And the drama.

And rather than spend hours writing dramatic blog posts or, worse, half-hearted ones because my mind is on this, I chose to take some time off — at least from blogging — and use it for quiet time spent in prayer.

Whatever it is, I’m assuring you that I haven’t lost hope and I’m holding on to my faith.

Via theadornedlife.com

Via theadornedlife.com

PS: Wait for me to come back!

Personal

Brownouts: Here We Go Again!

A couple of years ago, we were struck with daily rotational brownouts — there were days when we didn’t have electricity for 7 full hours. When that finally ended, I heaved a huge sigh of relief. I thought the ordeal was over, for good.

Fast forward to 2016. Hello again, rotational brownouts!

These brownouts actually started last year, but it didn’t last long (or does my memory fail me?), and it wasn’t that bothersome since the weather isn’t as hot as it is now. Also, the longest power interruptions were just around 2 hours? Yep, 2 hours of brownout doesn’t faze me anymore.

Just this week, we’ve gone back to four hours of power interruption. In this heat! In fact, right now, I’m just waiting for the power to go off so we could go to our suking grocery store. Might as well escape the heat while the power is still out.

To be honest, I’m not complaining. I find it hard to complain about little things like power interruptions when our farmers are starving because the land is too dry and hard to till. Continue Reading

Lifestyle Personal

Life After Losing a Phone (And Gaining a New One)

Hi everyone! *waves furiously*

I’m back! Did you miss me?

*cricket sounds*

Okaaaay. Anyway, I am back in more ways than one because *drum roll* I finally have a new phone! Let me tell you how life was in the past two weeks.

The Saga of the Lost Phone

I know I’m going to sound way too shallow here, but I was really dejected when I lost my phone a couple of weeks ago. I was not sad just because I lost a phone. Although that phone and I shared a lot of memories together (I used it for everything — from taking photos and writing blog posts to responding to emails and communicating with my long-distance partner), it was not the actual loss of the item that made me feel depressed. Rather, it was the loss of the things that I had taken for granted.

This is one of the last photos I have of me holding my phone hahaha. This was taken by my friend and colleague, Lenz, at Eden Nature Park

This is one of the last photos I have of me holding my phone hahaha. This was taken by my friend and colleague, Lenz, at Eden Nature Park

I would spot lovely sights or visit awesome places but had nothing to use to take snapshots (somehow, the compact camera has lost its appeal for me). Yuri would do something really funny or witty but I have nothing to record it with.

But the worst part of not having a phone is losing constant communication with Job. You see, the internet is not an option as he’s assigned in a location where internet/mobile data signal is really poor. So we depend on good old text messaging.

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Personal

Taking A Mini Hiatus and Breather

I’m a little bit exhausted.

To be honest, I haven’t gotten decent rest since my friend’s out-of-town wedding a couple of weekends ago. And then after a straight work-week, I spent the entire weekend exploring Davao City with my work colleagues (one of our teammates who hails from La Carlota, Negros Occidental flew to Davao last Saturday — it’s her first time in our city).

(And those are just the weekends. I haven’t even started about the in-between preps, both for the wedding and the team outing.)

But that’s a happy kind of busy. There’s another reason why I’m exhausted.

I lost my phone.

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Yes, my beloved barely 4-month old Huawei Honor 4c. I’ve just ordered pretty cases and a new tempered glass screen protector for it. Come on! And my pictures from our team outing last Saturday, all gone! Good thing I was able to transfer my photos prior to Saturday, but still.

I mean, I haven’t lost a phone since 2001. I’m not even kidding. I think I’ve been too careless with my things, so this is a lesson learned.

This is what happened. After fetching Julie, my work colleague from Negros, at the airport, we had lunch at Lachi’s. Then we travelled to Eden Nature Park and went on a tour. Then we had dinner at Taklobo Restaurant at Jack’s Ridge. It’s an al fresco restaurant frequented by tourists. I was using my phone the entire time but whether I was able put it back inside my bag or not is no longer clear to me. I might have left my phone on the table when we left.

When Yuri and I rode a cab to go home, I began to look for my phone inside my bag. When I realised it’s not there, we went back to the restaurant. But no one claimed to have seen it. I’m 100% sure I didn’t drop it because, hello, it would have made a sound. I think it’s either our waiter or a fellow customer who took it, but it’s 10 pm, Yuri is sleepy and tired, and I’m exhausted.

I was really depressed going home because I thought of all the contacts, messages, files, and pictures saved there. But wallowing in misery won’t do me any good. I have zero idea where my phone was or is and I’ve come to terms that I’ll probably never get it back again.

So… to my phone, thanks for the memories. I’m still sad but I try not to be too affected because it’s just a phone. However, a hiatus will be greatly needed for a couple of reasons. First, I need to rest. I’ve spent the last couple of days jumping from one telco to another comparing plans. I’ve finally applied earlier this afternoon but the phone I requested won’t arrive until at least another week.

Second, I need a phone to take pictures and blog.

I learned important lessons from this experience and I pray I’ll never lose a phone or anything valuable again.

Huhubells.

I’ll be back soon!

Lifestyle Personal Planning

The Planner Dilemma

I am a little late to the planner game this year.

Scratch that: very late!

The truth is I wasn’t planning on buying a planner this year because my planner from last year is still good as new. This wasn’t the case during the previous years as I’ve been using planners since 2012. But because I barely used my 2015 planner, I thought that buying another planner this year would just be a waste of money.

Certified Positive Planner

This was my planner last year. I loved it but I was too busy to update it.

So what I did was buy a desktop calendar for the planning and a small leather notebook for my journaling. It  almost worked except that the calendar had too little space for all of my agenda and the notebook was a little bit cumbersome to use.

I guess it’s safe to say I’m covered for the year? 😁 #wahm #wahmlife #planner #journal #homeoffice

A photo posted by Marie Angeli Laxa (@maanlaxa) on

Leather (faux) notebook in deep pink in the lower left corner and my floral desktop calendar in the upper right corner

While I still love the pretty calendar and notebook to bits (the desktop calendar shall be a mainstay in my, well, desk while I converted my notebook into a devotional notebook, A Line A Day style), I later on admitted that I wanted a proper planner for 2016.

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Lifestyle Personal

My Word for 2016 and 6 Simple Resolutions

How was your first week of easing back into normalcy? I guess it’s safe to say we have all settled back into our regular routines and tasks?

Or maybe not. Haha!

During my short vacation (I haven’t had a paid vacation in four years! Thank you Lord!), I had time to think about what I really want to see and accomplish this year. I know a lot of other bloggers blog about their word for the year. I’ve wanted to do that, too, but had never found the time to sit and really think about it (because, again, as a freelancer, I used to have no paid leave at all). Now that I had time, I thought about 2016 and what it means to me.

And I realised that, based on the decisions and changes my family, my partner, and I made during the last part of 2015, 2016 should be a year of:

Commitment

2016 is my year of Commitment

1. A commitment to God and becoming a better Christian

2. A commitment to an even stronger relationship with Job despite the big changes looming in the horizon

3. A commitment to my family no matter what happens and a commitment to becoming a better mother to Yuri (preschool, here we come!)

4. A commitment to remain a person of integrity in the workplace, whether in Stay At Home Mum or in the real estate industry

5. A commitment to be more available for my dearest friends, old and new

6. And a commitment to taking care of myself in all aspects

Last year, there were a lot of things, a lot of transitions, and I’m sure there will be more changes coming this year but I am committed to keeping my faith, the most important people to me, and myself despite the changes. I think I have already spent the last couple of years changing, improving, excelling that what I want to do the most now is hold on to the basics of my being, the simple things that make me me.

This year, no matter how my life changes, I’m committed to keeping my core intact.

psalm 37:5

Via theversesproject.com

With God’s grace, I’m ready to face whatever life will throw my way.

Bring it on, 2016.

Lifestyle Personal

15 Decisions, Transitions and Adventures From 2015

2015 has been a  full  year for me.

There’s no such thing as an empty year I’m sure, but my 2015 has been filled with so many things, a few bad while everything else wonderful. I’ve been so busy throughout the year that I barely had time to write in my journal – – I say that regretfully.

I could go as far as saying that a lot more things happened this year than 2013 and 2014 combined. These are 15 handpicked highlights of my totally awesome year:

1. JANUARY: I weaned Yuri from breastfeeding. That was a tough decision to make but I felt like it was time. I felt guilty but had to remind myself that, hey, almost 3 years of breastfeeding ain’t bad at all.

2. FEBRUARY: I went back to “school” to become a real estate broker. That was a great decision; I thoroughly enjoyed the experience and and met wonderful people who are now my friends!

Me, third from the left

3. MARCH: I, together with my immediate family, my cousins, and some friends explored Benguet, Ilocos Sur, Ilocos Norte, Manila, and Cavite for the first time. During the same trip, I volunteered to stay back in Vigan because of a nasty for poisoning and and got to explore the historic city on my own.

At Vigan

4. MARCH: I finally left my freelancing job (I had a dilemma about this nearing the end of 2014 because the new administrative changes no longer make the job worth it – – and I couldn’t even ask for an employment certificate since I am not “employed” after working with that group for 4 years).  Continue Reading

Personal

Coming Into Terms With Grief

Coming Into Terms With Grief

So I got involved in a, well, serious matter concerning an organisation I belong to. I don’t want to talk about it, really, but I’m mentioning it because it led me again to a very dear person tonight.

This person I will always keep in my heart is my brother (fraternity brother) who died last year. Almost exactly a year ago. I’m going to be cheesier than the usual so bear with me. That’s a fair warning, I guess.

That “serious matter” I mentioned had me looking through my old email account for messages that can be used as pieces of evidence. I had to recover my password using my phone number (thank goodness I’m still using my old number – almost 9 years old!) and I was able to log in successfully. However, I didn’t find anything useful, so I decided to install Yahoo Messenger on my laptop in case some conversations were stored there.

I haven’t checked or even seen Yahoo Messenger for maybe 6 years now so I was feeling a bit nostalgic.

The nostalgia intensified when I came across my beloved friend’s name, Rendell Ryan, whom we fondly called “Perper.” 6th of November last year, I just got home from my godson’s birthday celebration when I received the bitter news from a couple of schoolmates and a sorority sister. Our dear Perper had died and in a violent manner. I wasn’t able to sleep that night. At first I was just in a state of morbid shock. Then it sank in and I bawled my eyes out and grieved.

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Mixed Mess Personal

Not A Bad Day

Not a Bad Day

Today was almost a bad day.

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It all started when I had an intense stomach ache around midnight. A family friend and neighbour celebrated her birthday, and we ate, well, a lot of things. But what caused my stomach ache was that glass of Coke. I forgot I couldn’t tolerate soft drinks (well, not anymore) and I just drank it because, you know, Coke and lechon go so well together. I regret it.

Now, our bedroom is on the second floor of the house and we have no bathroom on that floor (long story). So I had to go down to relieve my stomach ache. I knocked on my sister’s door and, because she was still awake, I asked her to look after Yuri, who was already fast asleep. I confidently went downstairs and got to business.

Imagine my shock when I found the doors to both bedrooms closed. I thought my sister closed the door after her and laid on the bed beside Yuri. I entered the room and, voila! No sister, just my 3-year old Yuri sleeping on a bed with no railings and with no one watching over him. My sister apparently got tired of waiting for me and went back to her room to sleep.

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Events Halloween My Christian Walk Personal

The Thing With Trick Or Treat

I think I’ve already hinted twice (thrice?) that we’re not going to attend our village’s Trick or Treat and Halloween party this year because my big brave 3-year old is still traumatised by the costumes he saw last year.

Well, you can’t blame him. I can’t blame him. Some of my neighbours really go all out, props and all (read: fake blood, fake knives, real wheelchairs) and some of the costumes really freaked me out, too.

So while my mother, sister, and even our new helper, Michelle, joined the party, Yuri and I were holed up in my room the whole evening. When the kids – and adults – got to our house to ask for treats, they were even calling for Yuri. But no amount of cajoling could ever persuade the boy to get out of the house haha.

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Posted by Maan Laxa on Saturday, 31 October 2015

(Photo above was just taken yesterday, but you can imagine that kind of expression whenever he sees someone in costume.)

Ironically, this is also the first year we’ve had good weather during Trick or Treat. Previously, we always get stuck under a huge thunderstorm!

Littler Yuri as a Pirate LAST year

Littler Yuri as a Pirate LAST year

It’s not like we missed out on the fun. All of the candies my tween sister brought home (adults go Trick or Treating here, too), Yuri also took part in. I tried eating a chocolate bar, but then, that day, I discovered I had lactose intolerance. Permanent or not, I decided to swear off dairy milk completely. But no, not cheese, not yoghurt.

(Side note: I ate our usual quesadilla breakfast today and didn’t have any adverse reaction to cheese. So it’s just probably milk. Yeah.)

I’ve digressed. As I was saying, it’s not like we missed out on the fun. I had a lot of realisations during the “Halloween” weekend. Continue Reading

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There Are Things You Keep To Yourself

There Are Things You Keep To Yourself

I’ve always been a secretive person.

Secretive blogger is not an oxymoron. Nope. You can be a blogger, a personal blogger, and not have to live a life that is an open book. Now, I consider myself a transparent person — I’ve been told that a number of times before — but that only means I’m transparent in the things I choose to share.

Even pre-social media, I’ve never been the type of person who is comfortable sharing all of her secrets. Only a few people know my crushes, my relationships, my most important experiences, my mess. Only a select group of people knows about the things we undergo as a family; only a handful knew about my father’s stroke 9 years back, only a handful knew about my brother’s accident 5 years back, and only a handful knows that my father’s undergoing dialysis now.

This is a personal motto that I’ve always gone by:

The things I value the most are the things I keep to myself.

So when social media came and became the norm, I just unknowingly brought that kind of thinking with me. There are just some things not meant to be shared to the general public. Thank goodness for blogs and privacy settings.

I’ve been bothered by other people’s lack of privacy-consciousness; there are still so many people without any qualms airing their dirty linen in public insisting that they have a right to write anything they want because they have freedom of speech.

And I’m not talking about just dirty linen. I don’t really want to read your sweet exchanges with your lover on my feed — there’s Facebook messenger for that. I don’t really need to know every single thing happening in your life. Sometimes, I think I know more about what is happening to a certain person I don’t really know on Facebook than what is happening to my own siblings.

This is not meant to be an attack against people who love sharing their lives on Facebook. I’m a blogger; I know how fun it is to document stuff. But there is also such a thing called oversharing. What if your boyfriend or girlfriend doesn’t want the world to know the gory details of your relationship? What if that “harmless” picture of your child actually violates his privacy? What if your “freedom of speech” can actually get you charged with online libel?

I thought concern over privacy was losing its popularity, so when I chanced upon this picture, I breathed a sigh of relief. Privacy, in the age of social media, still exists.

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Parenting Personal

Hormones, Adulting, and Hospital Hopping

Okay, I belatedly realise the title may be the slightest bit misleading. Just to avoid making unnecessary assumptions, no, I’m not pregnant. Although I did get so fat… Haha!

Dress worn as skirt from my secret store Denim shorts | Forever 21 White floral flats from Chinatown Black sling bag | Fossil

Dress worn as skirt from my secret store
Denim shorts | Forever 21
White floral flats from Chinatown
Black sling bag | Fossil

But I’ve been extremely hormonal these past few days. I’m blaming it on work-related stress (until last Tuesday, I had been busy conducting interviews with applicants), family matters (my dad was rushed to the hospital Thursday night, underwent dialysis Friday and underwent another round of dialysis today), and personal stressors (discipline problem with Yuri and a minor tampo with Job). And would you believe I caught a stomach flu last Friday? I debated sending myself to the emergency with my dad already admitted in the hospital. Good thing I got well quickly, thank you Lord.

Ah, life is good.

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Health and Fitness Personal

The Night That Was A Blur

I can’t sleep.

I’m actually doing several things at once.

  • Talking to a prospect regarding certain subdivision projects in the city (#PartTimeBrokerThings).
  • Chatting with my workmates and commiserating over problems (which almost always arise on Thursdays).
  • Reading my latest Kindle purchase (I need to limit my purchases).
  • Watching an episode of On the Wings of Love (for the first time – didn’t get to focus on it, too bad).
  • Making sure every single door at home is locked (#OCDproblems).
  • Accepting Duterte’s decision (whatever it is).
  • Looking for that piece of chocolate I swear they didn’t discover yet (it was bought just this afternoon).
  • Regretting drinking that cup of coffee earlier (I don’t even drink coffee).
  • Blogging (obviously).

And waiting for Mama’s call regarding Papa’s condition in the hospital.

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