I’m sad.
Last year, in my old blog, I talked about slowly gaining weight as I was weaning Yuri off the breast. He was just 2 years old then and was still nursing, but it wasn’t as often as his sessions when he was a newborn (of course), which made me lose a lot of weight. As in 20-25 kilograms.
I was gaining weight last year but it wasn’t so drastic since I still nursed, ate a good diet, and occasionally worked out.
Now, I’m yaya-less (read: no time for workouts), still a voracious eater, and completely stopped breastfeeding.
In other words, I’m fat. Huhu.

To motivate myself to start dieting and find time to work out today, I wrote this list of reasons why I need to lose weight.
TEN
Before, I used to be done dressing up in 5 minutes tops. I just pick out a pretty dress from my closet and it almost always fits me well.
Now, those 5 minutes easily extend to 30 (or more) because only so few of my clothes still fit me. If they do, I have to check in the mirror if I actually look decent in it.
NINE
Still on the issue of clothes, before, I’ll just order whatever dress or piece of clothing online and, when they arrive, they always fit.
Today, I have a bag of newly purchased but never worn clothes which I should either bring to the seamstress or re-sell.
EIGHT
I need to lose weight for possible future reunions and get-togethers.
SEVEN
I need to lose weight because I love how it felt when I was 10 kilograms lighter. Everything felt easy to do – even going up and down our stairs.
Now I just feel heavy and bulky and out of breath.
SIX
I can no longer take OOTDs. I tried but got horrified at the pictures. Okay, I’m exaggerating, sorry. Honestly though, I no longer feel as confident to have my picture taken as before.
FIVE
I need to lose weight because I don’t want to be bigger than Job – which makes it even more challenging because he’s fit. Haha. Huhu.
FOUR
I need to lose weight because I noticed I easily tire nowadays. I can’t even play with Yuri for a long time – which makes homeschooling difficult.
THREE
I need to lose weight because I need to go back to eating a healthy diet. We’ve started eating white rice again this year because a close family friend also recently started harvesting from his farm. But this month, I insisted we go back to eating brown rice.
TWO
I need to lose weight as a motivation to keep moving and minimise my own screen time. One of the woes of being a WAHM is the lack of choice when it comes to movement and screen time. You have to be seated for a good portion of the day in front of a computer.
I need to make sure I’m not a complete slob sedentary person!
ONE
And finally, I need to lose weight because my father’s been seeing doctors (with an s) since last weekend. Aside from high blood pressure (he had a stroke back in 2006) and gout, we found out he has high creatinine, which can lead to kidney ailments.
For the sake of everyone I love, I want to grow old healthy and without ailments. And, given my father’s medical history, I really need to exert more effort into living a healthy lifestyle.
Thus, losing weight is only a side effect.

What about you? What motivates you to lose weight or maintain a healthy lifestyle?